THIS IS MY TIME.

I curse you 
And everyone who does fucked-up things like you 
You took away what had been given to me 
My innocence, my purity 

Out of many people 
I don't know why it would be you 
We belonged with the same blood line 
Yet what you did to me, you didn't mind 

I was so young and dreamy 
And you were old enough to guide me 
all I know is that I could trust you 
Yet you took advantage of me 

The mem'ries, still fresh 
As you move your hand inside my dress 
You kissed me, harassed me 
Looked into me saying nothing 
But that look served as a warning 

I was scared 
I was ashamed 
I fear about what would happen 
If I spill out your dirty secret 
So I hid myself under silence 


Years were added 
And I grew old 
Old enough to think about what had happened 
Old enough to stand up for myself 

And now I saw you 
Staring at me like a beast just like before 
But I won't let anything happen again 
This time, it would be myself who I will defend 

No one was around and you drew near me 
You held my hand and I yelled loud enough 
"This time you will not be the one who'll be satisfied!" 

In a snap, you we're lying down 
Face down on the floor, 
Blood all around 

I was laughing 
Loud and proud 
I continued my insanity 
When someone came around 

Yells and cries 
Echoed the room 
Questions of how's and why's 
Ran through my system 

I do not know the answer, 
I do not know what happened 
Moments later 
Everything sank in 

He took away my innocence 
I took away his life 
How could they say that I was wrong when it felt so right? 

They caught me off guard 
There's nothing left to do 
No more time to hide 


After all, for so many years 
I got what I want 
So I just raise my hands 
As I dropped the knife.

I still...

The feeling's still the same as before 
Deep 
True 
Sincere 
Seems like I had unlocked the door 
Seems like the key to my heart 
Still belongs to you 

It had been months since I last saw you 
But the pictures 
The memories 
The songs still reminded me of you 

And those brought me back 
To the place 
To the time 
When you're still nearly mine 

Somehow I wish 
I could bring back the time 
Played my game really nice 
Maybe I could somehow 
Catch your heart through that 


I admit I still feel the same 
Deep 
True 
Sincere 
Seems like I will never lock the door 
The key will still be yours 
'Cause I know I still belong to you 

LTSJ

Roses are red

Violets are blue

I don't have to wait for valentine

Especially now that I found you

You have made me felt

Like a brand new person

I've never been this happy

And you gave me the reason

You made me realize

That love truly exist

I've always been cautious with it

But its only you that I can't resist

You're the only one

And there will be no other

My heart belongs only to you

Forever and ever

I'll always stay true

And that's a pact

Ill do anything

Just to work things out

But most of all I'll never get tired thanking God

For having you in my life

And I'll never stop praying for Him

To make me your wife

How could you lie?

I've seen it

And it was the worst thing that I've ever saw

How could you do this?

How could you let me feel assured

That there is, and will be no one coming between us

But you did it!

Though you've never admit it

And it broke my heart

So broke that I can't cry anymore

Emotions have just died

All I can feel is that,

An excruciating pain is tearing me apart

I can't breath

I can't move

Everything feels so numb

So numb that I can't almost feel your love

Jealousy

I've

 tried to pretend that everything is alright

Whenever you two are together,

I've

 tried to be numb, deaf, mute and blind

Just to let myself be silent yet feeling bitter

And i always keep in mind about

What you have told me,

That what is going between you two is all about friendship

And that there must be no existence of jealousy

However, there are times that i can't control myself

And i, do not know if this is my mistake,

Seeing you two kiss even just on the cheek

Made me feel so uncomfortable and weak

Moreover, i asked myself if it is my fault

Or should i blame you for making me feel this way,

Being jealous over your friend

Wasn't easy anyway..

Not with you.

Being NOT with you is the hardest part

Especially when i know that at any time

You would go again and leave me with

A broken heart

And though this had happened many times

I still think of NOT leaving you because

I know, i surely can't

I love you and you know that

And i still mean it like what i did from the start

And no matter how badly you messed up with me

Still, my heart will be yours and yours...

Only.

Summer's nightmare

Few more days to go

And all that I will have again is misery

Summer times will snap back

And again, I will be drowned in tears

Summer's sun may brightly shine

And its heat may burn intensely

But still I know what i'll feel

Is the coldness that kills slowly

It will be dark, and cold, and wet

This is really something I can never forget

Summer nightmare is full of hatred

The season where in all I have are regrets